"Let others see you, exactly as you are, and let go of the protecting shield of perfectionism in order to express vulnerability." 

i just dont have anybody to turn to anymore.

who is the one who will listen.

who is the one who cares. 

who is the one who understands. 

i dont like the state all this is now.

i dont like this burden that i carry. 

i too, wish i'm a child once more. 

hihi

i'm back again.
after trying to remember my password to blogger for so long. teehee. FIRST POST OF 2013 BAHAHAHA.

i hear and i forget. i see and i remember. i do and i understand. 

Looking back at my past photos, i realised how skinny i was in the past! tsktsk, which means how much weight i've gained after leaving netball.  i think by the end of this year i can gain up to 10kg in 2 years, at the rate i'm eating and inertness. i really need to applaud my weight gain scheme. 

for the biggest enemy, is yourself.

((:

music is indeed intriguing. i've always wondered how people can recognise notes just by the sound of it and compose those bean sprouts.

and this guy is totally. amazing. he does covers wonderfully, a pity he doesnt sing along too. his big bang- blue cover is as awesome too ^^

hiaa-k haha!

LOL reminds of somebody haha.

Weekends that are slack doesnt bode well. And it doesnt help that i've absolutely no motivation to pick up books and be as self-directing learner. Isnt it all superficial taking up classes that doesnt rake much interest in me? But this is school.

I guess it's all about the attitude for learning. Instead of lamenting, i should really appreciate all this learning and school experience. To be honest next year i'll be definitely reminiscing school life and all my friends. I better find joy in my last year in rv. and pursue things im passionate about.

guilty indulgence

haha wanted to post about this like since !@$%^ ago.

korean dramas are horrible. they are so addictive! and this drama makes all of us hopeless romantics >< im swooning over each episode arghhh that's why i finished it in less than a week. neglecting all homework and urgency in constant revision. should watch it only after the A's LOL.

heheh secret garden! to be honest the story is so-so lorh it's like typical korean romances the leads go round and round and then after all adversities they are together and happy ending. the interesting part is really the switching of bodies (ohgosh the humour; the actors are really good in acting!). and probably cause some parts are like so zzzz that's hilarious and some really funny scenes. and the cheesiness is totally, -shudders- but damn sweet warao.

and watching it is like going through a emotional rollercoaster nearing the ending it was like super sad and then at the end it was like happy happy ending LOL reminds me of boys over flowers actually.

oh oh and hyun bin looks superbly good in the drama (!!!) and haha jiwon has a very cool demeanor heheheh.

though the side cast is also awesome ahaha secretory kim is like funny max and director park is stuck in my head for the way he said whyyyyyy.

haha shall stop this craze already LOL

a sea of strawberries

red for cny LOL.

hurray for cny haha long weekend. but somehow, the festive feeling is not strong as last year's ): and the school concert is really, a concert. there's nothing chinese new year-ish stuff except for the mandarin oranges.

had 2 steamboats this week muahahaha if i follow what mr ng says i guess i owe a hundred rounds of running around the track. had our traditional steamboat gathering at kristal's house again, and the most amazing thing is the air fryer! no need oil also can fry omg so cool and fried cheese tofu is like daebak!!!

then another at home haha we've got beer woohoooooo~ ^^

happy cny! :D it's a festive to gorge on food :D

cn blue released a new song not long ago! haha random.

after a @#$%^&* week

kawaii not ahahaha! i think some of the cutey things are from anime.

i've survived last week! omg it was such a tiring and depressing week. the worst week ever. i hope from there, things will start to get better. thankyou to all those who have been so helpful and encouraging! and sorry to my group for falling asleep like forever on the last day before the submission of the report :X

enjoyed myself again in the weekend, i wonder why i still lack the urgency in doing homework. it's not as if i have plenty of time. i've still got holiday homework undone.

from FEBRUARY onwards okay. i will be nerd nerd.

i will try lock the computer up. and lock myself in my room. AND REVISE LIKE MAD.

my mum asked me again: can go university or not?

and she proceeded to ask me how many a's and b's and c's i've got last year.

and i was like !@#$%^&* how many times you asked me that i also want get a's and b's and go uni -.-

i guess i just have loads of patience and a high level of tolerance.

on a decline slope

i guess this picture mean something else but anyways. this is kinda like what we went through since start of school.

maintained an optimistic outlook on start of school.

then it gets increasingly worrying.

and then we get depressed and thus pessimist.

after the world crashed down we decided to look at the issue realistically. and salvage it.

and now we are trying to survive past this week.

next week you will see the old me (hopefully!).

old.

let's welcome 2012! despite everything, it's the new year and it's a brand new start for everybody!

i think. this is a very good summary. exactly what we go through every year in fact.

although i still have the mentality of a 16 year old and that nothing seems accomplished, it's interesting to realise that we've gone through so much!

anyway on this first day of the year, i shall hope to:

1. HAVE MORE SELF DISCIPLINED.

2. HAVE FUN.

3. BE SMARTER.

yeah, i guess it sounds relatively simple but i dont think i can easily achieve all 3. oh wells. nevertheless, i hope this year fly pass like a whoosh~ too! ^^

poker face

it's so depressing recently. very indeed. what have i landed myself into.

i dont know have been missing netball a great deal. not only the game but what it taught us over the years. without it, i've been less disciplined. in terms of punctuality and studies.

and then there's mental strength. i used to be so sure, so certain, so confident that as long one persevere, one will succeed. i'm losing that belief.

i should be aim to be face challenges like that soon:

The One That Got Away- Katy Perry (cover) Megan Nicole

she's talented! her voice is beautiful.

reminds me of iu i dont know why, maybe it's cause they can both covers well and play a guitar ;D