tik tok on the clock

hope you all had a merry and fun christmas! ((:

i'm still practicing escapism in this festive season, and i'm a master in procrastination. really enjoyed myself this holiday, and i guess all good things (or times) will come to an end. very soon in fact.

this holiday, i've been to places where i've hoped to go, done things that i had wished ever since the eoys, and had fun like everybody's supposed to in the dec holidays. and of course, spent money as if it's nothing else but a piece of paper or plastic.

i guess. it's time to meet up with reality.

focus.

and i shall start by spamming homework every single day. hopefully i succeed. i realised my words mean nothing at all. i talk, and i dream big, i want to achieve a million things and yet i'm lazy to even move a pinkie. and that's one major flaw i aim to eliminate next year.

may we all achieve our heart desires.

again.

tea party.

ohmygosh it's been months and years since we played netball again and it's wonderful we can finally be playing the sport as a team together.

how weird it is, to catch a ball far bigger than the tchoukball, and to stick to the opponent like malt candy. but i guess we still have the flow, minus all silly mistakes made.

how wonderful it is, to not feel the immense pressure (though we were all still nervous heh) and play freely without any scoldings (but coach was still there).

sports is always fun ^^

and we had lunch with mc! never see her for a dozen years and the few stalkers are as crazy as ever. yeah hope to see her again and more gatherings to come~ ((:

same same but different

the past five days were the most enriching cip experience ever. i didnt regret signing up for childaid 2011 ((: it's like a concert by young people and children to help needy children. of course it was tiring and totally sian at some points of time, but was really happy yesterday ^^

was assigned as chaperone to the ballerinas, who are really angels as compared to some other kids especially those boys who are hyperactive. chaperone is something like a facilitator, just that we have to usher and cue them to be on stage. other than that was babysitting the little kids.

it gets pretty tiring especially we are always the earliest to arrive in the morning and the latest to finish everything, checking that the performers didnt leave anything in the dressing rooms. and it's especially stressed when in the backstage and having the walkie talkie is just so... weird.

when we first started wenhui jiahui and i (lol our names so similar right! :D) were always swimming in our own land cause the other chaperones reported 2 weeks earlier and knew the concert perfomances head to toe. and we were like... what? all the time.

but it got better after a few days and lol there was this reporter-like lady from shanghai who talked to me for almost half an hour while i was on duty managing 2 groups of performers (i guess cause no one can really speak chinese). woah multi tasking was difficult i was listening to the walkie talkie and trying to decipher what the lady was saying and coming up with a reply in chinese! mymy chinese. how long have i not used it haha. she asked so many questions that got me thinking and it became like a reflection.

like how this cip is entirely different from those that we usually have such as marathons and helping out in orphanage/old folk's home. chaperoning the performers was real back-stage work and it was the coolest experience ever. it was like going on stage, and when there's applause, you can feel the pride and joy, like you've helped to put a performance together. and when the concert ended, it's kind of funny when we look happier than the performers lol.

and this whole cip is just something completely away from academics and schooling. it's an exposure to something that makes everyone feel happy-- music.

it's wonderful that the performers have found their calling at such tender ages, like as young as 6. they know what they want to be in the future, they hope for achievements, and they are working towards their dreams. in comparison i'm walking a path that might lead me to nowhere and my interests do me no good because everything is to be practical in the world i live in. i hope someday, i can finally find and pursue something that i'm truly passionate about.

anyway, the concert was a success and it had a good ending. i shall hope to volunteer next year as chaperone again heheh! :D

life indeed.

so many bloody things to worry about.

1. the childaid cip with the role that leaves us all gong gong and lost

2. the ultimate fight between bacteria and plants

3. my super clean and untouched pile of homework

4. my holy 12 am sleep time curfew

5. my expected responsibility over everything in the house after my parents fly off

and the list goes on just that i pushed them to the back of my mind and hope they never resurface again.

feel so ever pathetic with the lack of time and the burden placed on me. i dont get why my parents placed so much expectations and responsibility on me and then find it as an excuse to treat me as their punching bag. they only show concern when they worry if i can take care of my sisters with my busy schedule.

and wow today arent sleeping early at 12 what a miracle all thanks to my sister who's still bathing in the middle of the night with no one shouting at us to sleep early wonderful.

life's full of surprises.

f(x) 에프엑스_HOT SUMMER_MUSIC VIDEO

LOL perfect for singapore it's always summer here.

didnt really like the song at first it's kinda repetitive but it's okay after awhile idk the style's like different from girls' generation etc.

and omg the chio chio girl is the sister of snsd's jessica! good genes really run in the family. and the girls in the group are damn young ._.

it's going strong

wah havent been posting for a million years! too absorbed in watching adam's couple its like my only life right now lol. but its really super duper funny! :D
i used to think i will never get into the korean wave since it's a diff language and why would anybody understand the shows or songs. wahpiang now finally know how addictive it is. it's as if im following the trend zzz which i didnt want to.

ayeeeeeeeee some kind of holidays this is. the science project is getting hectic though we only sort of started last or this week but it feels pretty long it's like going to school everyday to look at bacteria and back home researching. but sometimes i feel really grateful to the school like this is really a good opportunity. like honesly speaking, how many students get to work with bacteria?? and mr theodore is actually quite nice nia.

today's such an eventful day i dont know to cry or be happy. went for the tchoukball selection test at bedok there and heng ah, got xiaodan ithink i would have dug a hole and hide inside. never had i missed meilin and huixian so much (for tchouk lah)!!! wahh awkward max wanted to go home liao. the people there are so zai can really really very scary wahh i must be a fool to listen to coach. but have never wanted to get selected and today was such an eye opener!
and i injured my thumb -.- how suay can i be lolol even before the game started -.- im totally spooked out i just hope my thumb is okay my bones are very strong and my tendons super flexible. just like how on the first day of netball with ms puva i twisted my ankle -.- issit an omen that i should have never taken the sports path LOL. maybe i should have done music and continue dance heheheh.
people from the club is friendly but ahhhh the ppl look so much younger than they are that is super scary. yeah feel kinda out of place and a burden to xiaodan omg sorry :/

maybe im just cooped in rv for too long really weird to meet new ppl.

right left front, retreat?

choices choices choices, oh damn it. where do you keep all these if you want them all?

there's so much stuff on my mind and i really dont know how to allocate my time and thoughts. all i know is, my good few days after pw is coming to an end and that is a sad sad thing indeed.

really worried for my friend(s), and being a noob like me with zero awareness i just miss out everything. people are scary creatures and seriously it's a little difficult to deal with sometimes. i just hope we find a solution and everything will turn for the better.

and boom i dont know why commitments seem to be crashing down like today maybe recently i dont know if i can cope with all these! honestly the science project is gonna take out loads of time from me and problem is deadline's one and half months away and we had barely started. i doubt the execution is gonna be smooth sailing. i pray we are sailing in the right direction. plus another written report 3000 words nightmare.

then there's cip. cip's okay and im like jumping in joy now cause i think i made the right decision not to go for yvip. if i joined that i think at the start of the year i would have turned into a zombie. AND I REALISED HOLIDAYS ARE ENDING IN LIKE, 7 WEEKS TIME?? -faints-

how to finish the bloody pile of homework by that time. )':

and there's tchoukball and netball. i'm like cui max stamina's like bottom pit man and yet i still wanna continue choke a ball and now im caught in this stupid dilemma !@#$%^&* though im definitely joining the club (hx you better join too if you ever read this IF NOT I PUNCH YOUR KNEE aye joking lah).

holy god and c'div 08 netball team's making a comeback... with 1 friendly match LOLOLOL and i wonder how many training sessions we can have. seriously ah. hahahaha quite a joke.

how to balance all theseee wahhh what have i landed myself into! and my studies is not that kind can make it one how to compromise ):

ml told me to think about what i wanna do when i grow up. coach asked us what we want to pursue for recreation when we start our working life. and i wondered if i want to have a boring life.

i want a 1001 things and too be honest i know what i want after uni. and i want to start young before i get old. but there's so many things that i want to do that i think it's impossible. though of course right now, i hope i can believe in myself and choose the decision using my heart, not my head.

WHICH IS A BAD IDEA IM A RATIONALE PERSON AHHHHHHH.

good life good life good good life

finally ended pw! though sad sad sad cause we were rushing we didnt take a group photo with mr wnog ): to think about it we didnt take any group photos at all LOL but we are still a bonded group k ^^ though ahem.

the feeling's as high as like eating that brownie! -swoons-



will miss pw though the experience wasnt that bad. yeah like smbody say will miss 4/5 of it. LOL.
then went to catch you are the apple of my eye in the evening with wenting they all heheheh!



LOL apple mah. ^^



-swoons somemore-
so shuai and so pretty lolol. movie isnt that bad as tseyin said haha but the book's definitely nicer ^^ and not as sick LOL.
aiyohh but the ending's kinda sad.

yeah thats gonna kickstart a whole series of celebrations yeah! muahahahaha who cares about what homework etc i wanna go kbox soonish! woohoo~

days w/o pretty pics

today was meant to be a happy day. it isnt that bad either actually. just that we are not yet done with it ZZZ. feeling so magnimous out of a sudden, being able to tolerate all these funny and out of the blue stuff thrown into our faces. it's no wonder we are getting a little kee siao. it's contagious dont stay too near to us LOL.

looking right at the bright side now i hope everything will go smoothly and really last day for practise! can do it and shall do it muahahaha :D

and then i shall blog with pictures LOL heheh!

and we go up up into the sky

this is such weird timing to blog. with op coming and everything.

these few days i've been riding on an emotional rollercoaster. i feel everything, but mostly it's constant worrying and exasperation. and being helpless.

op question: what would you have done differently in your project?
i can tell you i would have done a thousand million different things and i will try to scrape that nice part out of me. i would have been a shameless obstinate ridiculous bitch, and would have done everything that i could to secure an A grade. but regret's always too late, isn't it.

not that im saying that given the current situation is not worth an A grade, but judging now with my biased opinion an A grade is like... a hope rather than confidence.

i think after pw i will have plenty of insights and reflections.
and i cant wait to start on the bo project, im getting so sick of all these now. though, of course, good memories will still remain and i hope after pw, that's the only thing i will remember (:

hell and paradise

havent been updating haha! but today happy happy just feel like posting something.

but blogger is going haywire i cant post pictures and i cant type continuously tsktsk arghhh ):< but still, LONG LONG LONG POST AHEAD.

today had the north face 100 cip, with people really running 100km! ohmy. that's like super shocking cause i cant even complete 5km currently. went with ah gooi we both thought we hadnt been to macritchie but in actual fact we did lah, for the 5-8km runs we had last time in the weekends.
saw the track people and mr quek, and gooi even asked if they are running for the 100km. LOL. of course not haha. the 100km run started at 1am this morning.

so right gooi and i signed up together but in the end we didnt end up with the same job! since we are both foodies we signed up for food station but in the end gooi was assigned to water station and i was at central food station with zhiying. only two of us for that shift! O: and i didnt know her lah, so was sad sad sad at first. somemore cannot swop duties.


zhiying is super duper nice and her voice sounds like somebody that i know. anyway we went there and there is grouchy woman 1 who seems to be a perfectionist and made us do loads of stuff while the other from the previous shift slack slack slack. i think it's cause we very guai do whatever she told us to do. so she bully us. and we arrange the food till we salivate like mad but the people keep telling us cannot eat.):


then still okay lah then comes grouchy woman 2. somehow grouchy woman 1 left after awhile to fend for ourselves. grouchy woman 2 is grouchier and more perfectionist lah she made us carry things here and there cause the presentation of the food not very good then we are like thinking what the hell did we do all the stuff at first -.- while we fume and hallucinate about food somehow the mad rush was suddenly here and we are like running around to get stocks for the food which includes:
apples bananas grapes+strawberries, subway cookies, subway sandwiches, marigold jelly puddings, hard boiled eggs, curry puffs and mineral water!


(look at the variety offered by subway! O:)

of course alot volunteers helping out but then again not all efficient nia. got this lady only stand there and tell me that must tell the runners can only take one each but i told her i need to replenish the cookies+sandwiches(which are under her -.-) so i completely ignored her. somemore isnt it ridiculous if you ran like the whole day and only entitled to 1 small sandwich? it looks smaller than 6inch please. AND THERE ARE STILL LIKE BOXES OF EVERYTHING.

some people smart take second helping the lady got spot lah but i ignored her again hahahaha cause busy busy arranging sandwiches (which the lady never really help). and it's damn tiring honesltly. as i put it: manual labour.

and so we run here run there rush here rush there and grouchy woman 2 still ordering us to do this do that zhiying and i pekcek liao. anyway when the crowd eased i told the lady and grouchy woman 2 that people can take more if they want, since there's still many boxes of food. but somehow they worried about rest of people not enough food so must rationise the food. means cannot display too much food. which we ignored also LOLOL there were still like boxes of cookies (peanuts and raspberry since they dont have tags for it so shouldnt display them ._.)

anyway then at the end they say still around 470 volunteers and there was enough food for them but then like only 47 people come like that leh. LOLOL by that time got less people and then we were allowed to kope muffins cause there were like dozens of boxes of muffins and more than enough for some food. but the most tempting is still the cookies we were drooling over double choc which in the end ran out of stock. but before that i stole one whole cookie ;D somehow we koped alot of food later on. except the sandwiches which is a big no no. anyway the grouchy woman becomes less grouchy and she rmb my name and she told us can eat muahaha.

anyway cut to the chase exciting part! when the whole race is ending soon (100km, 50km, 25km) then we had like STILL BOXES OF FOOD SIAO ONE YOU KNOW. then we were like advertising for the food and stuffing everyone as much food as possible even passer bys and volunteers lol! damn funny the volunteers some we know (from rv also) then we were like come come i given you plastic bag you take home for your famliy friends and neighbours anyone you know then we like force them to eat. the runners also we tell them to take all they want they look so happy lah hahaha! then some look super auntie! and when the plastic bags went out (which are not supposed to be given out) then we say i give you box! you bring home this this that and that! super funny one zhiying and i are like forcing them to take everything home. and got this uncle we gave him a box with like XXX food, and one whole entire tray of hard boiled eggs! look like he went shopping at market LOL.

then we (actually only me) got auntie i packed super lot of cookies plus some sandwiches and curry puff after realising super nice plus jellies for dessert wah i super nice to my family. PLUSPLUS eva gooi came back with 4 cartons of milo and she passed me two and i was like wah! (cause i ask her save some milo for me and she brought me back 2 litres! O:) zhiying also dont want then i have like XXXXXX food in my (sis's) bag it was on the verge to break liao lah and i brought back one whole tray of muffins home cause they had like 20+ trays left can you believe it!

so from initially no touching of the food to stuffing people with food and auntie max kope like so much food the change damn drastic i feel bad to those people who only had one serving poor them. in the end we still had boxes of sandwiches and cookies but i dont know what the organiser did to them they just wheel them somewhere else.

in the end shagged like i dont know what but so much food we damn happy and somemore giving people food is a very happy thing to do since they were also very happy got this whole group say they go picnic alr. and the auntie volunteers also super joke they keep saying the leftover food
the monkeys will eat. only one of their many convos on monkeys:

auntie 1: who eat hard boiled eggs!
auntie 2: monkeys!
auntie 1: monkey got eat eggs one ah?
auntie 2: modern monkeys lorh!
dont know why just sounds damn funny! where got modern or non-modern monkeys one!

and then got this few runners talking in front of the station and it was like:
guy: you run very fast leh!
girl: no lah!
guy: i cant even smell your fart!
LOLOLOL

we keep laughing cause alot of funny stuff happen lol.
wah this time the token is really hard earned money but at the same time i gained so much (food). aiyohh. i hope they dont waste too much food X:

cause we are all different

guys and girls think very differently.
maybe it's easier to be a guy sometimes; they like simplicity. whereas girls think too much.

im still very amused, and mostly annoyed by the ignorance of my academics by my parents despite many times of explanation.
me: i've got pw in november. it's an a' level subject.
my mum: aiyah you mean preparation this year for your a' levels next year only mah!

and she still thought that i took a' level higher chinese last year.
epicness.

the blues blues blues

^^

lol today after the mock op so many people ask me why i look so sad. nah i dont think i was really sad i think more of worried and also exasperated lol. it's like something stuck inside but i just cant say it out nor do anything. and feeling pretty moody these days, i shall say it's just temporary mood swings. been getting annoyed and whining much, really sorry to those people who have to endure it all! kbox made me so much more happier yesterday haha it's like a form of release you know. and im glad that i've some really great friends.
which makes me miss 4a cause people were simple honest sincere and comfortable (with exceptions haha) though many deem us as muggers but whatever.

i never want to have my displeasure shown and i hope to have respect for my personal space and i dont want to be my own walking diary and my life does not necessarily always XXXXXXX.
i think im way too understanding already that i think im always at fault. but now i just hope to oversee and forget.

ah the cakes look so nice. siao i've been eating alot of other stuff after dinner and now im salivating over these pictures.

anyway nowadays the curiculum is good, i think, just that it took out pe so sad and so many more pw slots! but i guess it's good that they kinda force us to do work. i think it's the examinations and a slack previous week, that made us so unfocused during lessons/lectures! stamina for it is super low lah, been dozing off like some jet lagged traveller.

haha been lazy to post and lazy go find nice pictures after the downloaded funshion changed my toolbar D:<

heartstrings!

hahaha i finally finished heartstrings! very nice heeheehee but i compared it with a little of you're beautiful horh, this one more on romance and less humour lolol but still very nice ^^
though one thing i always cannot really stand is that it's so cliche (some scenes lah some) ._. it's like things that will never happen in reality but i think people fantasize until like that aiyayah. like where got so devoted ppl one but if not so kua zhang then the drama not as exciting liao lol.

heehee there were so many eye candies in the show to swoon over lol think i going mad liao.



the ice cream look damn nice lah they got double scoops wah! ahh the male lead~ :D

the drummer! he's a little mad/weird in the show but very funny and cute ^^

haha this guy look a little constipated here. but very shuai also right haha lol.

the music in this drama not bad leh ^^ and only 15 episodes aiyohh like a bit de short so fast watch finish already. shall watch you're beautiful next my sister say very funny heheheh.