4 years of secondary school life. yet i feel unaccomplished. what have i done?

my academics isn't good. i didnt do much cip. what have my character developed as? what leadership have i shown? the lcd model is useless. they want everyone to be a leader, have done loads of cip and have a good portfolio. so what.

i feel young. i feel ridiculous. it's junior college next year. but there isn't a feeling that says, oh i've grown and really worked hard and achieved something to gain a place in the college. there isn't a feeling of change.

i'm going to the same campus. same bus and train routes. same uniform. same people i see (mostly). same school. same rules. same food.

at least, students in other schools, even those that offer the ip programme, move off to another campus. meet different peopleand expand their social circle. have a change in school uniform. more lax rules. have a entirely clean start in another place. the past are history. this's excitement! and that's why these people experience more, see more, and have a wider perspective of this world.

i'm trying to point out what you cant gain in my school. given another chance, i would have chosen another option and i would have seen it all, experienced it all, gone through it all.

dont choose my path.