along the way

awesome thing: a smile ☺




it's been pretty interesting this week (:

wednesday, guitar's first syf. i really dont know what to feel, like happy or sad?
we did put in effort, but it just isnt very much. rehearsals were okay, but smtimes i really wonder if we take it seriously, or maybe it's just another issue of self discipline.
anyway that day on the stage, i think we played okay, but our practices before that was way better.
i dont know if we disappointed mr ong and mr hung. they put in alot of effort, time, thinking, planning and dedication. although mr ong said we stole his heart that day LOL he's funny. hmmm but overall, i think the experience is cool. :D

thursday, coaching fit4life girls captains ball with livia. there's like lack of people, but in the end managed to pull the basketball group to join in the game. omg i miss netball so badly D: my junior says planning to recruit around 6 more members for a' div. it's so tempting to join back and start from scratch. but i would have too many commitments and i dont think i have that mentality to endure.
i dont know if i regreted not giving a definite reply when mp asked me if i wanted to join back last year. i dont know which is a right choice.

friday, sports day carnival. i like the games, i mean there's like frisbee badminton water soccer and human table soccer. water soccer's really fun. reallyreallyreally fun. it's a pity that it lasted for only 5 or 8 min only.
but then, this sports carnival is so not interactive. there's nothing much to do. you can wander around like lost souls. there's no cheering atmosphere. there isnt a "sportsy" feeling like we used to have on sports day. there's an air of sianess.
i wonder what happened to the organisation. im getting annoyed. is rv getting so big that it cant be controlled. is the school capable of handling of big school events? where's the old rv spirit.

then we went to film the econs oscars which was a total joke. now that i look back at the videos i found out that our acting skills is cui hahahaha. and meilin's house is so prettyyy and she got the most stuff ever on earth.

saturday. flag day, we went tb market. it's pretty heartwarming to see ppl that you never expect to donate, to stop and find coins to donate. like got this indian riding a bicycle, i mean ppl wont usually stop just to donate, but this guy he stopped and found like all his coins and dropped them into the tin. i was really amazed. and while we were on our way back to tb plaza there's this little boy who (got daoed by xuanyi and regina LOL) asked his daddy to wait for him while he took a coin out to donate. and oh there's this lady who look like the retired bio teacher (i forgot her name) donated too omg i wanted to ask her whether she was a teacher not.

and of course today is REGINA'S 17th BIRTHDAY! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
i wish you a fun and fufilling day and of course to enjoy your youthhhh ^^

we should all be happy (:

wonderful thursday

awesome thing: when the queue for food is short ☺



so prettyy!! but so distracting also .__.

it's a brillant day! cause today's a half day ^^ imagine if school starts at 10 everyday. everybody's so much more awake, so much more carefree, so much happier!

and then after school today went to grab lunch with sh sy r and ys it's been so long since we ever went out for lunch. so pathetic.
okay anyway so today we found out smthing really interesting! that classes that have a pretty large percentage of 4A'10 people tends to be the boring classes. this's kinda sad luhh, i mean, seriously, people just gotta liven up a little bit.
listening to the happenings in 5A made me appreciate 5B more.

oh and i realised there's always pros and cons to holidays.
PROS: you get a day off from school
CONS: it means an additional day needed for makeup lesson/lecture and worse, more homework.

so inhumane.

is it all about time?

awesome thing: mr bean's straws are GREEN ☺

how true.
why have i changed. i need the old hardworking me back.

sometimes i really dont know how to cope.
there's this tremendous pressure on academics. so many expectations. i used to be happy when i get an A. now im just happy to pass a paper. i can't find the time to go through every single word in the notes. i cant really grasp the topic that a teacher is lecturing. i dont know how to balance all the subjects. and there's the need to read extensively.

then there's cca. syf's coming in only a week's time, but still, i dont practise so much cause again, there seems to be no time. which is pretty worrying, cause it's syf! it's gonna be depressing if we disappoint the teachers and instructor or worse, if i screw it up.
and of course there's entre. how much commitment can i give without giving up much time that can be used for revision?

and then there's various committments. it's getting a little sciency, and sometimes a little lame, am i wasting time? or maybe im actually exposing myself to many other things that i might never have the chance to. and does interest rule over all things; am i able to take up a project that's really interest me? but do i have enough self discipline to balance everything.

family. why am i feeling a heavier burden. and nobody seems to be understanding.
it's like a paradox sometimes. since im in jc arent i supposed to be busier than my sisters. yet sometimes why do i do more chores than them. why do i sacrifice more time to have everything at home in place.
my parents dont even know whats going on in my school. the comments to my dropping grades is: it's okay, go poly after 2 years in jc/ dont think you in jc means definitely can go uni.
my mum's taking leave from work when my sisters are having mid years. yet she has never asked me when my mid years are. or for that matter, know that my mid years are in term 3.
nor do my parents know how disappointed i was in not going for the us trip. a trip that i thought i was going since last year. a trip that i helped in the planning of the itinerary. a trip where i have many fabulous friends going. and i cant even whine about it.

this is getting way too depressing. how i wish there are more of happier things to balance out all these.

she's back

awesome thing: when there is a free day coming! (good friday! but still not considered as a holiday, nope) ☺





this weekends's terrible. i didnt do much stuff with my head throbbing really badly i wonder if i can catch up with the workload.
anyway! avril lavigne's back with her new album and all her songs are wonderful! and she's having her tour in singapore on 9th may! omg.

happenings this week ;D

awesome thing: really feeling the ache in the abs! ☺





ohmygosh i think this week really super fast! many cool and bad things happened, it's just life haha. so wednesday was learning trip to bmtc and it was good! a long ride on the bus and a short ride on the ferry (wish it was longer!) made this whole trip like some kind of excursion haha :D and i taught it was gonna be boring but it was alright cause there were FOOD, and a little of entertainment (shooting) coupled with some knowledge on NS. LOL the people made it as if like very cool i mean woah, branded sports shoes, shaver, swiss army knife and all kinds of stuff.

i wonder if females join what will be different! it's kinda cool right like, men go NS ppl just orh; women go NS people just stare at you HAHA i was staring at this lady in army suit who came out from the ferry terminal (whats the place called) ohmygod so cool :D


then anyway in the never take the bedok bus aiyohh it's just a sad incident. oh then today (omg feeling so good no tuition today!) went gym with meilin, eva pangseh last min D:< haha it was pretty joke seriously, cause it's all guys inside and it was kinda funny at first but at least the fitness instructor was uber nice and there was jokers from our class in the gym too.

eh so we went in and we did abs exercise i swear the instructor has perfect abs luh. then we went to cycle (ohholy didnt know cycling so tough D: ) and then used the machines. o.0 got some really cool new machines that i didnt really know how to use but in the end joel got say how to use haha some really very fun ^^

oh then eva came TSKTSK only xuanyi can convince her to come. aiyohh. then it brings back memories on how we used to go for gym sessions. but then the laupok chin up machine wasnt there alr i think we spoilt it last time bah. kinda sad ): that machine damn cool leh.

and there's this super cool weighing balance that can calculate your percentage/weight of bones, fats, muscles etc and water composition!

im kinda convinced we made the instructor's day SHE WAS SO HAPPY TO SEE FEMALES IN THE GYM and was like smiling at us all the time! somemore when we left she said: will be back? of course we said yes haha gym's so fun!
though can see meilin tired liao haha. but still! very fun mah ^^

and gp and econs are over! really sad for these tests i mean if think deeper maybe would have written better essays. but no use crying over splilt milk i just really hope to do slightly better than term 1.

for the better!

awesome thing: spamming songs ☺



how do you balance everything?

time, family, friends, academics, cca, commitments and what not. all the while maintaning sanity and staying true to yourself.
it's been long. long since i enjoyed subjects that i once find interesting, going for lessons because i really like and going to school because there's always something to look forward to.

there was such a thing called freedom.

now we are all tied down. by many many many chains. manymanymanymany. but then again it's only for another year and a half. after that there's no more school in rv.

that's actually kind of sad.

oh and i lost my econs notes. holy crap.

coffee.

awesome thing: air con

this is so cool.
coffee does keep people awake. i wanna go redeem starbucks soonish. (:
sometimes i wish i was smarter and can finish my homework faster. then i can have more time. hmmmpf. D:
today's post has no link in whatsoever.

bad bad very bad.

awesome thing: the fan on a HOT HOT day ☺

okay this is kinda a bad picture but you get its meaning.

maybe i was too ambitious to sign up for this kind of oelps.

maybe it isn't exactly a bad thing to not be able to go for the trip.

i will miss it though. i even helped to plan the itinerary ):

but it doesnt feel as sad as the uk trip.

though i feel super angry at this guy this this guy. when he came our uk trip is gone. now my us trip is gone too. what more will he do to make my life miserable. he's a nimcompoop.

RAH.

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