awesomely suay. i own.

awesome thing today: RV HAS A TOP SCORER. (Y) I'M SO PROUD OF THEM. ☺

people say always look at the bright side.

but it seems the bright side is getting dimmer, dimmer and much dimmer. like a gloomy sunset.

i feel so miserable. there isn't a thing in school for me to look forward to. not a single thing. no excitement in learning new topics. no satisfaction in finishing practicals on time. no pride in any piece of homework. SCHOOL = STRESS. perhaps a smile was all that keep me going. perhaps i'm just feeling down today. perhaps the first term is just suay and lady luck will side me for the rest of the year. perhaps i'm just pessimistic.

suayness today. oh man.

i'm 0.1s away from silver, away from all the stupid training in pe, all because of one funny mock napfa and a stupid frictionless pair of shoes.

a funny interview that made us miss econs test. but the interview isn't that bad, i hope rv will continue to improve, no matter what. (: i'm proud of rv. the people in rv.

and the most disguisting event of today.

15 minutes lost from a 50 minutes econs test, i must say im proud to have done so much questions in 35 minutes. and of course i'm looking at the bright side.

i swear i could have thrown my pen into people's faces or stabbed myself (okay fine smthing else) in anger. and the lump of thing in my throat that prevents any swear words from coming out.

so it's our fault that the tutorial class has no clock.

so it's our fault that our teacher released us late.

so it's our fault that we abide the rules and not use the handphone to check the time in class.

so it's our fault that we are poor to get a watch.

so it's our fault that we are dumb to not ask people with watches the time.

so it's our fault for spending a few minutes rushing the hell to LT2 and finding no single soul before rushing to LT 3.

so it's our fault that we have no time awareness.

awesome. i'm sorry. this is a super valuable lesson. and the first thing i'm getting is a HOLY WATCH.

but you know what. we are going to work doubly hard for the next econs test. and be super early for the test.

at least, i know that the failure doesnt mean i'm stupid. it doesnt mean that i didn't study hard for it. (which i studied like a hardcore mugger -.-) it doesnt mean i was slow in my thinking. the failure just reflects on the failure in time awareness.

i'm sorry to those people who i've given the bushuang face (like eva and weiliang lol). i'm sorry for rushing out of the LT as soon as the dismissal word was said. (although hell, i'm not sorry for being the last person to enter the LT and the first person to leave; i'm that pissed)

and i'm really grateful to zoenin, (j)wsmrt for all the encouragement they gave. and r who've kept so calm and silent when i needed the peace. and everyone's who was so understanding. i'm sorry i lost my temper.

on a brighter note, i'm really happy to have seen the a levels results. i feel so proud of them; it makes me feel there's hope for us.

and pepper lunch and ice cream with r really made my day. food makes my mood lighten naturally.

and from now on, i shall become a hardcore mugger. i'm already becoming a guaikia, abiding the school rules and everything. soon, i'll realise the dream of being a nerd.

尽情期待。