right left front, retreat?

choices choices choices, oh damn it. where do you keep all these if you want them all?

there's so much stuff on my mind and i really dont know how to allocate my time and thoughts. all i know is, my good few days after pw is coming to an end and that is a sad sad thing indeed.

really worried for my friend(s), and being a noob like me with zero awareness i just miss out everything. people are scary creatures and seriously it's a little difficult to deal with sometimes. i just hope we find a solution and everything will turn for the better.

and boom i dont know why commitments seem to be crashing down like today maybe recently i dont know if i can cope with all these! honestly the science project is gonna take out loads of time from me and problem is deadline's one and half months away and we had barely started. i doubt the execution is gonna be smooth sailing. i pray we are sailing in the right direction. plus another written report 3000 words nightmare.

then there's cip. cip's okay and im like jumping in joy now cause i think i made the right decision not to go for yvip. if i joined that i think at the start of the year i would have turned into a zombie. AND I REALISED HOLIDAYS ARE ENDING IN LIKE, 7 WEEKS TIME?? -faints-

how to finish the bloody pile of homework by that time. )':

and there's tchoukball and netball. i'm like cui max stamina's like bottom pit man and yet i still wanna continue choke a ball and now im caught in this stupid dilemma !@#$%^&* though im definitely joining the club (hx you better join too if you ever read this IF NOT I PUNCH YOUR KNEE aye joking lah).

holy god and c'div 08 netball team's making a comeback... with 1 friendly match LOLOLOL and i wonder how many training sessions we can have. seriously ah. hahahaha quite a joke.

how to balance all theseee wahhh what have i landed myself into! and my studies is not that kind can make it one how to compromise ):

ml told me to think about what i wanna do when i grow up. coach asked us what we want to pursue for recreation when we start our working life. and i wondered if i want to have a boring life.

i want a 1001 things and too be honest i know what i want after uni. and i want to start young before i get old. but there's so many things that i want to do that i think it's impossible. though of course right now, i hope i can believe in myself and choose the decision using my heart, not my head.

WHICH IS A BAD IDEA IM A RATIONALE PERSON AHHHHHHH.